PILA Lubbock - Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness

Supporting parents of loss in the Lubbock Community

Danielle

From Danielle: I have 3 handsome boys and I am almost 31 years old. I have a 10 year old, a 2 and a half and a 9 month old. I was finally pregnant with my little girl that I have always wanted. I had a normal fine pregnancy. On February 26, 2018, I went in for a routine ultrasound. Everything happened so fast as I was 30 weeks. I was told my baby girl had no heartbeat. I had to be put into labor. On February 27th at 7:20 pm, I gave birth to my beautiful little girl. Hope Dorothy Marie. I picked the name Hope from the day I found out it was a girl. Hang on pain ends. Boy, did the good lord test me with that one. Dorothy Marie was my grandma's name who passed away. My baby's weight was 1 ounce and was 24 inches long. That was the hardest thing I have ever done in life. It changed my life forever. I thought my fiance and I were going to fall apart. I was in angry pain and blamed him. We found out my placenta just didn't grow. I do want a baby someday, not that it will replace my sweet angel, Hope. The best advice I could ever give, is talk about what you went through, it helps. Honor your sweet angel baby. It was a living baby, and I find peace in every day spent here on earth with my boys are blessed and one day closer to being with my baby girl. Thank you for letting me share my story. IT HELPS. I am sooo sorry for every mother's loss. It's a pain no women should ever feel. I have put picture of my baby girl's ultra sound when I found out it was a girl and her feet, the day I gave birth and couldn't have the glory of bringing her home. I had to give her to God. I found my faith through this process. And that's what keeps me going most days. Thank you for letting me share my story.